just started my new meds, went from zoloft 75 mg + 100 mg seroquel (antipsychotics)

to 150 venlafaxine ( effixor) + 100 mg seroquel ( antipsychotics ) + 2 mg of adivan ( for anxiety attacks in the morning )

lets hope for the best was kinda scared to take so much…. blah my friend is onthe same kind said when he switched to it for the first couple weeks he was pre emo and tired and anti-social D: i really hope my body doesnt react the same 

i dont really talk to all my followers only a few… uhmm i really think this i asking too much , like i asked the girl i really like and sorta not really mentioned this to my bestie…. but I’m switching meds…….. double the dosage i usually take , and a few other meds… im actually scared to start them to i havnt till tomorrow because if i did yesterday i wouldnt of want to go to armin even tho hes like the main person who takes my depression away….. but i just want like you guys to ask me random questions keep me distracted… most of u well be like ”  i aint got time for dat * eats nutella*” lol  but like just if u can, and karl i know obv u will :p and thnx for actually makin a effort for tryna be there for me even tho we havnt met =] maybe one day doe! no homo doe! ( not tryna be like.. mean lol u get my jokes) but yah ninja :D thnx guys , or even better yet post even funnier stuff :D keep me entertained :D love you all <3 i hope u guys love me to?

this girl has been on my mind for awhile now….. shes everything i would want in a girl, she may not thing much of her self but i think shes perfect just the way she is. i can say im lucky to have her back in my life and hope not to lose her again. even tho it wasnt my fault. but maybe im still having a competition with her past… maybe i shouldnt open up as much as i do to her until she shows me she wants me to? just to many things have been been going through my mind lately been so stressed cuz of school but im glad im done my finals but patiently waiting my marks, to stressing and work, and family and friends ugh. last thing i want to do is drag her down the same road i am. i honestly just want to see her happy with or without me. im just gonna back off a bit give her some space?… i just dont want her to slip out of my fingers cuz i really do like her and i do wish for more from her, but maybe the wounds are still fresh. Maybe she isnt ready. i just hope she doesnt sabotage her own happiness because she doesnt thinks he deserves it.

Pretty content I have her in my life again and my feelings grow stronger for her each day

Miss my friends funeral today….. Cuz it was my last final….. I’m depressed af, sometimes I just wanna take my life just to see all the people who have passed again….. It’s weird tho Cuz deep down I don’t even feel alive anymore… Like numb yenno?

…. Life is truly a beautiful struggle

.. like a thief in the night, indeed. Be there for the one he left behind. The irony of death is that it’s the living that suffers.

its things like this that make all the water works happen….. and old friend passed away today, just brings back all the poeple we’ve lost in our life time, friends and family, lifes to short, hope you up there hanging out with luke man r.i.p the both of you ill miss you both so much :(

16 of april, everyone who self harms, is suicidal, depressed, has anxiety, is unhappy, going through a broken heart, just lost a love one etc. i suffer depression myself so i know what people go through. everyone draw a semicolon on your wrist to show support/ or if you’re going through it. ♥ A semi Collin is used when an author could’ve finished a sentence but they didn’t. The author is you and the sentence is your life.