Colliding with forever

RIP James and Lily Potter

Does not always mean you are wrong and the other person is right.
It just means you value your relationship more than your ego

hoping to kick to L.A on friday for a bit for a much needed vaca! tacos and coronas yes please!

Searching for the right, but it keeps avoiding me. Sorrow in my soul, ‘cause it seems that wrong really loves my company.

wooohoooo only 2 more weeks till i can up my size on my tapers :D i wanna find like sword tapers or some cool neon ones all swirly with other colors that be cool and ima get a double lip ring on my right side both black rings:D just gotta get the motivation to book the appointment :P woohooo maby now ill be level 7 swag?

i need to stop hurting ppl around me with the stupid actions i do. no one ever said change would be easy, but i do believe i am trying my best, i have amazing friends by my side, i have family , who i constantly fight with but would take a bullet for me, i have alot of best friends and good friends, i have this one special girl who i know will always be by my side threw my worst and best im happy to call her one of the bestest friends eber=] i r a new person , comparing myself to what i used to be. ive had  amazing past couple months =] got to hang out with friends i never get to see, been too so many great shows with the greatest ppl in the world, made some mistakes on the way, but im only human…… ive been able to make myself happy without any help of other ppl or anti deps, and lately ive been super super happy cuz ive been getting the chance to chill with this lil loser i know=] that is all=]

If someone wants to be a part of your life they’ll make an effort to be in it, so don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn’t make an effort to stay.

Here’s to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, “I only want to be your friend”, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance.We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated. Here’s for the ones who did their hair and make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn’t see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder “what if”. This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn’t mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that “things were going too fast, he needs time.” Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an “I told you so.” The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here’s for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here’s for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here’s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When ‘your song’ comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him, and realized that once again, he hadn’t called when he said he was going to. One day you’ll find a guy who’s worth all the tears, but he won’t make you cry. You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It’s going to hurt like crap, & it’s going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell back in love.. only to get hurt all over again. 

I understand you’re bothered by something and after you’re done being a magnificent cunt, I’d like to remind you that life is what you make of it and while you’re being pessimistic for the last few years of your life and for God who knows how long in the future, I am happy with my life  but because I always try to make the best of all situations - I might cry, I might scream, I might not succeed  at it but I sure as hell ain’t taking out my problems on people that don’t deserve it(even tho i have being hypercritical atm)but  I will not sugar coat my thoughts or opinions just because you’ve gone through something tough because if plenty of time has passed and you still aren’t making an effort to be happy or optimistic then quite frankly you do not deserve my sympathy.  Keep your dark clouds to yourself because I will not be affected, I’ve got nothing but sunshine and lollipops in my pockets. Now thats wassupp :)

I pray that we’ll get through this one day . that everything bottled up the discomfort the numbness the vulnerability the fear and paranoia will be released into the atmosphere. And it will be, I know it will. but for now we’re being trained. after this madness is ended all said and done we will be stronger people, because it’s said God will drag you through hell in order to get to heaven. We will find peace man but for now we gotta get through this. Break down here and there but that’s okay it happens, those days where  it’s like “fuck where am i who am i ?” is nothing but a projection of our imagination…right now  in this momment you may feel that way now, but that shit can’t harm you  don’t worry you got this.  this is nothing bu a dream it can’t hurt us but only mold us into something better. Don’t let it fuck with you to much because we got this. The plan is to conquer this mindset. Picture it.. lounging on a beach in Mexico blistering hot ass sun , a corona with lime in one hand and the other hanging on the side and just saying ” danm.. did we really just go through that” I wanna be able to look back and be proud to say i didn’t end myself even in the darkest of despair. I’m here today stronger then ever 

i may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love

again. But if she loves me now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - i

aint either, and the two of us may never be perfect together but if she can

make me laugh, cause me to think twice, and admit to being human and making

mistakes, ill hold onto her and give her the most i can. She may not be thinking

about me every second of the day, but she will give me a part of her that she

knows i can break - her heart. So i wont hurt her, i wont change her, i wont

analyze and i wont expect more than she can give.ill  Smile when she makes me happy,

ill let her know when she makes me mad, and miss her when she’s not here.

Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.

halloween isn’t really that different from any other day, everyones still pretending to be someone their not.

1. so it really pisses me off when i try my hardest to make plans with ppl and they just bail or dont even show intrest, like wtf….. you say your my best friend yet i dont get to see you, u live 5 houses down for god sakes..
2. and also just in general ppl need to stop complaining how they feel bad wasting food cuz theres starving kids in africa like i dont see you doing anything to help u can atleast donate a fucking 1$ every now and then :@
3. i really also hate all these grown ppl causing drama for no reason what so ever….. like do you show upto a party and look around and instantly and judge someone by the way they look and start drama for no reason, like some ppl just wanna have a good time 
4. im really hating family atm to you would think theyd be the last ppl to stress you out …………. like familys family but come on…….
5. did i mention how much i hate ppl who get up in my grill and like push me and my friend like……:@:@
6. i also hate cold feet….. warm socks please<3
7. i hate when ppl say “its whatever” to something they dont wanna talk about….. cuz they always like always endup bringing it up later on like………. shut up!

la dee da dee we like to party we dont cause trouble we dont botha nobody ——— why cant everyone live by that…………… noooooooooo they gotta be up all in my grill, psh ill sik my friend stephanie at u to bite u!

if god existed cancer wouldnt

to drunk to sleep, and to happy. like seriously i r to happy………mmm chicken

so ……. NERO WAS FUCKING AMAZING…………..meeep ahah honestly had the most amazing night of my life, better then skrillex not gonna lie, uhmmm got to kiss the most amazing girl =] got to see my future wifey alana watson in person ahha;) nero killed it like so many amazing things about tonight like i can go onforever=] swag=]